rat race ~ rockthedub

"Rat race!

Oh, it's a disgrace

To see the human-race

In a rat race, rat race!"

-Bob Marley

You gotta love it... I always seem to find myself in these situations, where my job is gone, and my family is going broke because of my lack of employment. This wouldn't be a problem if employers acted in their namesake and employed. I sat at a job for a year and 5 months, busting my ass, hardly sitting 30 minutes at a time in my desk due to the receptionist needing smoke breaks, all the while the work that I am supposed to be performing for 1/2 a day turns into a full days work, meaning I neglect the fucking stack of files/boxes that I was originally employed to do in the first place! Nevermind the polotics of my main supervisor being buddy buddy with a shady bitch who will smile in your face one minute and apply heel to back in the next... even to her own homegirl! Nevermind the fact that I sat next to a woman who started ordering her lunch at 10AM, and walked out of the job one day because she paid too much attention to work that was not significant, getting so frustrated over a file that she stormed out, before she "killed herself, or someone else". Nevermind the fact that they fired me over some bullshit. I can be over all of this nonsense, my so-called "lack of productivity", my "making excuses" when I was just explaining myself to them. My problem now, right now, is the fact that I either have too much experience, or not enough experience. I have a solid background in being a fast-fucking-learner, adapting to changes and new ideas in an instant; why can I not express this to employers? Why shit on the kid? And if I end up NOT receiving unemployment benefits because of some shit they put on my record, hell will rise up.

I applied for a bunch of jobs today. One company, a local insurance place, has turned me down 3 times already. I applied again, wishing it's not a #4. The last time I was there, they told me I had too much experience, and thought I wouldn't stay in the position if I got it. I mean, let's say that was a problem, is wanting to advance and get ahead a BAD thing? The thing is, I would have been perfectly comfy in that spot -- hell, I ended up doing the same thing as a temp.! I end up sending out resumes and cover letters to places that probably won't hire me, because I need to feel like I am trying. And I am trying. For I need money. This is the plight of the unemployed.

It'd be easier if I had 1) a college degree, or 2) a car. I could open up my spectrum so wide if I had at least one of those. Alas, I have neither, and end up chained to the bus route. Woop woop.

So, say a prayer for your unemployed floyd over here. I need something... anyone hiring? Hit me up, I'll flick you my resume pronto. And if someone is willing to pay me for some work-at-home shit, I'm MORE THAN READY. And now, for some videos:

The Specials "Rat Race"