My boy Joulz il has been frustrated... he won't talk to me about it in depth, but I know he has. We put out The il Before The Storm, and it seems like its been lost in the shuffle for whatever reason. I try to not dwell on things that didn't go my way, just like I don't like over-hyping my triumphs, but I think some of the words from this post migth be echo'd in the convos of many an MC in 2009:For me, it always seems as if Hip Hop comes with the jagged pill of reality for you, if you don't have a huge following or if you don't have the money to really get your thoughts out to the masses. Its almost a daily struggle not to get jaded when I know for a fact that I really don't have the resources to get the music out to the people that I would like to have it. That's really the most frustrating part of it all. With all the new mediums of putting music out and all the millions and millions of DIY emcees, Im starting to feel like Im getting lost in the shuffle. This is a discouraging notion. How do you continue to do what it is that you love when what it is that you love doesn't love you? Even typing that, I had to laugh. The greatest exercise in futility for me is being an emcee who has something to say, has the ability to say it, but yet has no one who will listen to what he is saying. I often wonder if I should just go to the microphone one day and just spew out the most unintelligible and non-tangible gibberish and then immediately put it online and pub it as the greatest song ever. Send it to the djs and press them to play it. Submit it to every blog and hope that they post it up. What if THAT'S the song that people start to pay attention to me by? How would I feel? Would I be able to live with that? Honestly, I cant say that I would.
It's a tricky situation these days, and I honestly feel bad for talented individuals who can't get their spit out, or get their bars heard. Dumb fans need teaching? I don't know. I'm trying to figure it all out myself...
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