just a bit of a dougie houser-ish post, need to get some ish off my chest.
i don't know what i'm doing. not in terms of my life, but the opportunities i miss. its almost like that nigga who's last picked - he can shine if you just let him show you.
i feel like i could be doing so much MORE, but for whatever reason, cats don't see me in that light.
maybe it's because i'm not on everyone's blogroll. maybe it's because i don't have a bottomless wallet.
i don't know what it is, but it can get aggravating sometimes. i know what i can do, and how i can do it. no one else does.
i wanna scream sometimes "HEY RAPPER/DJ/PRODUCER - I GET YOU, WHY DON'T YOU GET ME?! I CAN HELP YOU, WHY NOT HELP ME HELP YOU?"
its almost as niggas is appeasing me to get shit out on the 'net, so they can see the next plateau they need to reach for. is that my position - the screener?
if so, let me know. if not, let me know.
just talk to me, you. say your words. or just don't say nuthin'... wait, you're doing that already.
thank you. and you're welcome.
don't say nuthin'
7 comments:
within the last couple of days i've been reading your posts and I can really appreciate where you're coming from. by happenstance I came across your site while looking for anything related to that "coca leaf" song by Doom. it has been so refreshing to read your views on everything so far. I became absolutely enthralled with your work after only a few lines. I just want you to understand that i can truely dig a mind like yours and this work right here isn't in vain. I can appreciate that when it comes to this bloggin biz you hold no inhibitions with your work. you've mastered your craft in my opinion, and I'm surely taking note.
Funny thing is I was reading the most recent 5 posts and seeing "0 comments" as usual on here, and was wondering why no one gives you feedback or comments. Then I was wondering if you cared. Then I saw this.
It seems like you hustle like Nah and 2dope and definitely have a pretty good hit count, but people dont give back. I know what its like. I have kind of given up, even though I know that my shit is better than most.
Keep it up...if you can take the crickets.
DUKES
Oh and you should take comments off your approval. W/O seeing comments instantly people are discouraged from posting.
Khal-
What up fam. I've been a regular reader for a while, we've talked on Twitter but I've never left a comment so here I am !!
Thought this would be the perfect opportunity to reach out. First, to let you know we appreciate what you do.
I've learned that the key being successful and content in the blog game is to find your own lane and go with it.
I know that may be cliche, but it's so damn true. If someone can't be his or her self, then the blog will be overlooked.
The main reason why I started checking RTD is cause you've got your own voice and a variety of different types of music.
Keep doin what you do and readers like me will stay around. Peace !!
don't think i'll give up, nor does not getting comments make me want to, but it is odd... b/c i get a lot of love. thank you guys for checking out the site. i always appreciate your support.
funny thing, its almost like u PICKED my brain and pulled out everything I have been thinking over the past 5 years about MY MUSIC. Its the IKE TURNER argument. He felt as if everyone he had helped, stepped over him to get theirs and left him dolo. I finally had to get to the point recently, while in a convo with my gurlfriend, that i admitted THAT wasnt what made me angry. I had to admit that in spite of telling friends, family, etc that I do music FOR THE LUV OF HIPHOP, the TRUTH is I DO want sumthing from HipHop. I dont just DO THIS FOR FUN, or FOR THE LUV like most of us starving HipHoppers are fond of saying! We are not SOMETHING FOR NOTHING people, but we LOVE to say we are! lol
Thanks for being honest Khal, I loved ur blog when I 1st ran across it, and I've been a fan irregardless of getting posted. I especially love blackwrasslin cuz ur a true fan of wrestling just like me. I dont KNOW u, but thru ur blog I identify wit u, and have come to believe ur a pretty cool ass dude. Now, wit that said, I'll be honest and say I dont love every song u post, and I dont think other people love every song of mine that u post! lol I dont think all the cats u post are NEXT-UP or DOPE or even RTD CERTIFIED (in MY opinion). But what I LOVE about YOUR BLOG is ur unkut, unpredictable and uncomrpomising with YOUR BLOG. Its yours. U owe none of us no more than YOUR views, YOUR favs, YOUR definition of HipHop. If YOU decide to promote a artist/label/city, etc, then you can. But just like me, YOU DO WANT SOMETHING BACK. You may not have felt like it, but this post revealed it. I've done music for 10-11 years, no official album, no manager, no "street-team," no "record deal," not ONE RED CENT have I gotten in the process of creating over 800 songs! I put my HEART in it EVERYTIME i go in the booth, but I DONT put my heart on the internet, and I DONT put my heart into kissin ass for folks to love me, and I DONT know how in the hell to win friends and influence people cuz at my core, I'm a TREMENDOUS ASSHOLE! And that works for me! But it doesnt work when people EXPECT me to read their minds, or KNOW they're offended by something I did without telling me. SO when it comes to music, the people I fuks wit are the ones who UNDERSTAND I can be hard to keep in contact wit, who UNDERSTAND i dont do deadlines well, who UNDERSTAND I'm not DIVA, I'm just me!! lol
I can understand where ur at on this one fam, but my advice is continue to try to DO IT FOR THE LUV of HIPHOP, then you expect nuthin and all will be for the best in this best of all possible worlds. When it comes to judging PEOPLE's motives, intentions, etc, there's almost ALWAYS a hidden side we never see or even know exists that can explain why we do what we do. I know I've been on BOTH sides of the misunderstood coin! I'ma artist, and I want my music to be in 10 milion peoples cd changers by the end of 2009. Now I know it aint gonna happen, but wit the change I got in my pocket, I gotta "hustle" the few DOPE DOPE songs I have done into a fanbase that will POSSIBLY buy my joint. And there are 10 million cats JUST LIKE ME out here trying to win friends and influence people. U arent just the screener, but you ARE the middle man fam. And unfortunately the glory will often go over u unless you DON KING every nigga that u feel like you're helping in this HipHop thing! lol My advice: You think somebody's USING YOU? Ask them DIRECTLY if thats what theyre doing. If they say theyre not, believe em. If they say they are, then the ball is in ur court...
Just my thoughts fam...
very good points. im not sure who you are mr anon, but i dig what you're saying. and in the end, im gonna keep doing this. i am getting a lot more than i ever thought i would (from a lil change to loads of free music), but there are times where i think im perfect for something, then get slighted. i talked to myself about one particular situation last night. it burns me, and maybe when im old enough to not give a fuck, i'll talk about specifics. but yeah, trust me, i've asked cats flat out "what's really good?", or been like "wow why you doggin me". i try to keeps it real on a real level, not on some "lemme put you on blast in the post!"
i've taken down a few posts where i think i went a lil left when it was unnecessary, unfortunately.
in any case, thank you guys for listening.
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